Blankets

Here's a picture of the baby blankets I've made so far. I will probably give them to the mission in San Jose, Ca

Schmapp list

This photo is being considered by Schmap for publication in their list of places to visit to be publised at the end of May. This picture was taken at the Japanese Friendship Garden in San Jose CA

Wound Center

Today I went to the wound center so they could check my legs to make sure everything was ok. They said that what I was seeing was ok. It's doing what it's suppose to do. They also finally admitted that they have never seen any wounds like this before. That was so discouraging to hear. They were also surprised to hear that the wounds are still so painful that I can't sleep in my bed. That made me realize how they are just like everyone else. They have no idea what it's like to have these wounds. So I came home and just cried. I don't know what else to do. I've been trying so hard to be strong and deal with this the best I can, but it just isn't enough. After 4 months, I would hope to hear that I'm at least half way to the healing point. But that doesn't seem to be the case.

I guess that's enough complaining for today.

I don't understand

Tonight when I changed the dressings on my legs, I noticed a change that doesn't look good. I called the wound clinic and left a message so they will get it first thing in the morning. I just don't understand why they won't heal. Right now i'm scared and I can't stop crying. I don't think anyone really knows what I am going through. It's so hard and I don't know how to keep going. I just wish something good would happen with my leg wounds.

Misty and the toilet

She is fascinated with the water flushing. Where did all the poop go???????

Cleaning lady Part 2

Well I think I could get use to being a princess and having people do things for me. The cleaning lady came today and it was so nice to just sit and knit while she cleaned the bathroom, kitchen and bedroom. Here are some pictures of my newly decorated bathroom. It's really pretty with all the pastel colors.

Red Rose

Beautiful red rose found at Filoli gardens a couple of years ago

PacMan

Do you remember the good old days of Pacman? Well I'm addicted to the online game that I found. Click the title and it will take you to the Pacman game and it's free

Ocean Video

My best friend Victor Tarassov created an ocean video today that is really beautiful to watch. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Click on the title above to view it.

Cleaning lady

Why is it when you hire someone to clean your house/apt, you spend the day before she comes cleaning? When people would tell me they were cleaning their house because the cleaning lady was coming the next day, I would always find that amusing.
Well I hired someone to clean my apt. She'll be here tomorrow. I spent most of the afternoon cleaning...........Go figure..........

Restless

Tonight is one of those nights where I just can't get comfortable. I'm in pain, I'm crying and it's nights like this when I feel so alone. It's nights like this when I wish there was someone here to offer me some comfort or to just be here. I know God is with me, but sometimes I just need the presence of a person. Someone God has sent to bring me some comfort. A hug right now would feel good.

It's just one of those nights and it will pass and tomorrow is another day. Hopefully I will see my friend Lynnette tomorrow and she will take me to the Lazy Boy store so I can look and hopefully buy a recliner chair.

That's it for tonight.

iLap

Here's Misty in the iLap box

Me and Misty

Not a great picture of me, but Misty looks cute.

Reindeer Games

I was just talking to a co-worker and she was telling me about a meeting that will be held in PA. If I was well and working I would be getting ready to go to this meeting in early May. I wish I was well, so I could go and then spend some time with my dear friends Victor and Kathy who live in New Jersey. My co-worker was telling me that our manager has scheduled a day of "Reindeer games" for one of the meeting days. No one knows what that means, and they are all a little worried about what they will have to do. She said she would call me when it's over to tell me about it. She said she would be calling from the bar, where she will be having a few "adult beverages"!!!

Angels watching over us

The other night as I was sitting in my chair trying to fall asleep, I was in so much pain from the ulcers in my legs. I have been
dealing with this for 4 months and not sure how much longer it will take for the ulcers to heal. I was crying and asked God for help. My prayer went something like this: "God, I need your help. Could you please take this pain away. If you don't have time tonight, maybe you could send me one of your angels, or even an angel in training to come and help take away the pain." I remember thinking that this prayer was probably not the way I should ask God for help, but it was all I could do. I closed my eyes and minutes later I didn't feel the pain anymore. I knew right away that God had heard my prayer and sent me an angel to help me.

No matter how you pray, always know that God hears what is in your heart and he will always love you and take care of you.

Misty loves to sleep

Misty gets comfortable

Misty

Meet Misty. She is a 4 year old Ragdoll cat. I got her on Sunday 4/13/08. She already knows she is queen of the castle.
She's very mellow and loves to rub up against me and wants to be loved. I have always wanted a kitty with blue eyes, and
she has beautiful blue eyes. I'm sure there will be many more pictures to post as she gets use to her new home.

Carol's new Christmas tree

View from new apartment